My daughter has been going through a rough time, learning to cope with anxiety and depression. It’s hard to fight an enemy you can’t see. I often find myself on the rollercoaster of emotions with her – sympathetic at times, encouraging at times, blunt at times. And yet, somehow, she has a tenuous hold on the one thing that has been her passion throughout her life: stock car racing.
It relieves her anxiety. It’s an escape from reality, or should I say to a different reality, for at least a short time. Even during off-season she can climb into the car and feel some relief.
Passion is an intense emotion, a compelling enthusiasm or desire for something. Passion is energy.
In spite of her issues, she is clinging to her passion. She’s setting an example for me.
In the midst of everyday life, between the challenges of work, family and self, I still have a passion for reading and writing. Maybe the order flip-flops at times, but it never goes away.
When I was young, I regularly checked out books from the library. Public, school, bookmobile…it didn’t matter. I just wanted a stack of books to read each week. We didn’t have the money to buy new books, but I didn’t care. Even borrowed books offered opportunties to get lost in other worlds, and to learn.
I also started writing when I was fairly young. My mom recently gave me a folder of papers she had kept from my youth. It was a lot of fun, and kind of emotional, to read the stories I wrote so long ago. Some I remembered, some I didn’t. But reading through them reinforced how important writing has been in my life. To this day, I'm comforted by the feel of a pen in my hand and words flowing onto paper. It doesn't matter if I'm writing letters, poetry or fiction; if I'm journaling, or even just making lists.
For me, there is a freedom in putting pen to paper. There is freedom in escaping into a good book. These are my passions.
My goal as a writer is to share with others the passion I have for reading. If my writing gives just one person the pleasure I’ve had from reading, and encourages them to read more, then I’ve done my job as a writer. Of course, I really want to impact more lives than just one, but one is a good start!
What is your goal as a writer?